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The title is misleading, snippets from this article.

MANILA, Philippines—A 49-year-old woman died of heart attack at her home in Metro Manila on Friday, but a throat swab indicated she was infected with the Influenza A(H1N1) virus, making her death the first in the Philippines related to swine flu.

Duque said the postmortem findings showed that the death was caused by “congestive heart failure secondary to acute myocardial infarction aggravated by severe pneumonia either bacterial, viral or both.”

The woman was also found to have an enlarged liver, spleen and kidney, tumor in the uterus and mild goiter.

“Given the available situation, we cannot conclude that the death is due to A(H1N1). But in other countries which have reported deaths, majority have preexisting medical conditions,” he said.

And no, she did not die because of A(H1N1), though the virus might have aggravated her already present medical condition.  I am not sure if our news are really doing this on purpose, but they seem to be spreading fear and causing paranoia amongst the people.  The virus is still mild, I don’t think it would be able to kill anyone, especially with proper medication.  The virus is still not airborne, but it is highly advised that people who have the flu should cover their mouths when they cough or sneeze.

Last week, while I was riding the shuttle going home, I sneezed — real hard (and yeah, I covered my mouth).  The people riding this shuttle, especially this mid-40s lady beside me, looked at me in disgust — a very deep disgust.  Like as if I look like Ephialtes, have limbs like Octoman and have the worst body odor ever.

It’s not her fault, I’m not blaming her.

It’s such that this whole fiasco of about A(H1N1) has been hyped up, especially the government.  Maybe they’re just distracting the public so they could push through with their plans, whatever those may be — Con Ass anyone? And of course, there can’t be any public demonstrations nowadays, since as far as I know, it is banned because of the ‘contagious’ A(H1N1) Virus.

Let’s not talk about Cha-cha or Con-ass here, since the topic here is supposed to be A(H1N1), not to mention that I’m totally not against it.  A little change might help us — since we’re already at rock bottom anyway.

After reading the PDI headline, I would like to end by cheering to public paranoia, applauding the government’s fear propaganda, congratulating the media for misinforming people.  As a final note I would like to say that Dengue is much more fatal; Ebola turns you to mush and A(H5N1) just plain kills.  In my opinion, I’d rather have A(H1N1) as it is just another seasonal flu.

Tell me something
When the rain falls on your face
How do you quickly replace it with
A golden summer smile?

Tell me something
When I’m feelin’ tired and afraid
How do you know just what to say
To make everything alright?

Chorus:
I don’t think that you even realize
The joy you make me feel when I’m inside
Your universe
You hold me like I’m the one who’s precious
I hate to break it to you but it’s just
The other way around
You can thank your stars all you want but
I’ll always be the lucky one

Tell me something
When I’m ’bout to lose control
How do you patiently hold my hand
And gently calm me down?

Tell me something
When you sing and when you laugh
Why do I always photograph my heart
Flyin way above the clouds?

Chorus:
I don’t think that you even realize
The joy you make me feel when I’m inside
Your universe
You hold me like I’m the one who’s precious
I hate to break it to you but it’s just
The other way around
You can thank your stars all you want but
I’ll always be the lucky one

Chorus:
I don’t think that you even realize
The joy you make me feel when I’m inside
Your universe
You hold me like I’m the one who’s precious
I hate to break it to you but it’s just
The other way around
You can thank your stars all you want but
I’ll always be the lucky one

You can thank your stars all you want
But I’ll always be the lucky one
I’ll always be the lucky one

I’ll always be the lucky one

I’m performing some blog maintenance right now. Too busy to post lately.. oh well.

Happy birthday Aned! Cheers!

I’m excited! I’m so excited! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

LOL… funny, I rarely proof read my posts because I really don’t care about grammar and shit like that. But man, some of my posts suck. Oh well, life

I have been checking out my spam comments for this blog, and, I must say, those SPAM comments are getting smarter lol. I am finding it quite difficult to determine which is spam or which is not. So I really had to go back to the post and check out if the comments make any sense, I also tried checking out the source IP, their website and etcetera. Oh well, wish me luck, I have approved two “suspected” spam comments, I hope I did not commit any mistake.

It’s mid-April now, and work has been quite heavy, and I could not even start with the side projects assigned to my by our Account Manager. APAC Team has been rolling, we are getting thank yous left and right. I do hope this increases our salary LOL. Working here has been quite a ride. Yesterday, I left my cellphone at someone else’s table, luckily, most people around here may be trusted (Thanks Mick, Erik!) and I asked one of them to keep it (Thanks Roane!)

I have been singing Hey There Delilah by Plain White T’s, it’s quite a nice, maybe you should listen to it Have a great one every one!

It’s April’s birthday tomorrow (April 7, 2009), and I bought her a gift, it’s a semi-surprise actually (I already gave her the gift last Saturday). It’s a functional bag, I suppose I got it right, mainly because that’s the only thing I knew that she liked hahahaha!

Hey all, I have been busy lately, April and I (or just April) have been doing our wedding preparations. It does not seem to be very difficult, probably because the weddings still a year from now. Anyway, I want all the guys to wear barong tagalog and I want a barong that is a class of its own. I think April contacted around 2-3 designers for barongs, unfortunately they cannot do what we want. So I suppose we’ll just make do with a lola mananahi I hope we can start doing the barong soon… because I’m excited. LOL.

Good morning everyone!

Yes, I already proposed, and no, it wasn’t the most sweet or earth shattering kind of proposal. It started off with a conversation about her friends, and about the stuff her friends and I were talking about. Most of the discussion was about love, being hurt, being the kabit, being with someone who already has children, stuff like that.

Eventually, the topic went to our wedding day, she asked, “Are you ready?”;

I replied, “Yes, I am; but I’d like to buy more time.”

Of course the discussion became ‘heated’. Sinong babae naman ang hindi magrereact sa ganun, diba? So, we talked about the past, present and where were heading, I told her everything, “Malikot pa kasi ako…” and “I still have the ‘tendencies’“. She said as long as I am aware I have those tendencies, it’s fine, something like that.

Then I realized something.

I am not really afraid of being wed. I am not afraid of wearing the ring and living what it symbolizes. I am not afraid of the next big step. But, I am afraid of screwing up. I don’t want to hurt her, commit a stupid mistake along the way. She’s everything to me, and losing her would be unthinkable. I would want to live with her, every day for the rest of my life. I have always dreamt of waking up with her in the morning, I’d love to hug her to sleep and just watch her sleep in my arms. There are so many things I have realized that night, and even more things I could not even write here, because words are not just enough to express what I felt that time.

This was not about buying myself time to fix myself, correct my wrongs or just to become a better person.

It dawned to me that I seem to be able to do anything when I’m with her. As long as I am with this person, I am. I changed what I said initially and told her, “I am ready as long as it’s with you.” Handa ako sa kahit ano, basta ikaw ang kasama ko.

Yes, we were crying like babies by now.

I told her, from the bottom of this stubborn heart, “Will you please marry me?”

She replied, “Yes.”

I said, “At least, now you could tell our children I begged you to marry me.”

Both of us laughed.

She is perfect, too perfect in my eyes. And I love her with all my soul, my heart and with my every being. I want to spend my whole life with her. I want to be with her here, there and everywhere. I want her.  I am lucky to be with her. I am thankful she’s here with me. She will be my wife, mother to our children. She is my greatest friend. Ever. I love her.